~ CURETTED FURY

For a thwarted intention
For an unfulfilled expectation
For an undelivered communication

Anger arises in me
And I am terrified,
The mental shudder reverberates
And enrages my fibres,
Fulminating my mind’s eye.

Words malform
Like cement mixers
In my parched mouth,
Nothing I say comes out
Like I think I mean.

I feel anguish and
I blabber insensate nonsense,
Spouting out restlessness
And claustrophobic curses.

Denial and acceptance
Are chaos in my depravity,
Unquenchable and furious
In the maddening thoughts
Of glory and forfeit,
A lost cause in a valiant battle
Forever seeking closure and release.

Forgive!
I screech my primal scream
Tearing my heart apart.